Shopping Expedition Part 1

     If you've read my Life Redecoration entry you know I've wanted to change my wardrobe for quite some time. My problem isn't that I don't have clothes, it's that I have so many that are dark and dreary. A majority of my wardrobe consists of black Marilyn Manson shirts, which are cool and all, but that's not how I want to catch a boyfriend. Plus, they make me feel ugly. (Very soon a lot of my clothes will be going directly to the homeless. They can get way more out of them than I ever have.)

     Yesterday I finally dragged my dad out shopping. We had a nice lunch at Red Lobster, and then we went to Aeropostale at the Prime Outlets and looked around for a while. That helped me get a good idea of what I wanted, but I didn't want to stick around any longer after I had been peeped at by some boy, so we left.

     Our second destination was the Florida Mall, which is so huge we easily walked a few miles there. We looked around for bras for literally hours until finally finding ones I liked at JCPenney that weren't tons of money. I knew I had been wearing the wrong bra size for a long time, but I had no idea it had changed so drastically. I almost want a reduction, honestly. I've been wearing a 36C for years and the woman that measured me measured me as a 38D. Ouch. I really hope they don't grow any more—at 17 I should be almost done growing, right?—and I'm terrified to even think about what they're going to look like if I ever become pregnant in my later years. I know sometimes they get horrifically huge.

     So anyway, once I got the bras we went looking for actual clothes again, and went to the mall's Aeropostale. I tried on a bunch of stuff, but I ended up only getting two shirts which really disappoints me because I had my coupon that saves $10 for every $50 I spend, and I didn't even spend enough to use it. I'm irritated with myself now because I could have gotten more shirts. I'm also disappointed with myself because the night before we went shopping I fretted for hours about the coupon being lost. (I never did find it, Lisa printed one from online.) I worried for nothing, which is so expected of someone like me.

     The good news though is that I'm going back next weekend to get the jacket I want—I tried it on yesterday at Aero, it looks really good and is originally priced at $100, holy crap a $100 jacket for $17—and I can get more clothes then and I can use my coupon. I know that I need to just get over it, I don't know why I'm beating myself up over it so much when I know it doesn't matter. Truly, I just really feel like I have nothing to show for hours of my time, which is just like how I feel about the rest of my life. "I have nothing to show for anything." I also hate to think that I wasted a full day of my dad's weekend when we hardly bought anything and he wanted to go for a bike ride. Thankfully he got to go today, and rode twenty miles.

     If you're curious about what I got, I got this shirt but in purple/blue (pictured right) and I got this polo in black. I really like this shirt in both colors, but I don't remember seeing it at the mall Aeropostale or I would have gotten it. I love this cami too—to be worn underneath a sweater dress like this (in black)—but they didn't have it in the grey color I wanted.

Also, I fell in love with this sweater! I want it soo bad, but they didn't have it in the color I wanted at the second Aero location. :(

All in all it was a fun trip despite my obvious disappointments with myself. I had a good time being with my dad and having his undivided attention for hours at a time, which is unusual of course because he has a girlfriend and I have a little brother that wants the same attention. I guess that's pretty princessy of me to want "all of daddy's attention", but I'm sure a lot of girls with dad's feel that way sometimes. I liked not having to compete with anyone to be the most important person, for once. So often in my life I am always second most important, and that spans into many, many aspects of my life. I wouldn't mind so much if I got to be the most important on days other than my birthday. That may sound like a bit of an exaggeration, but don't take everything so seriously. If you happen to disagree, I can gladly give you examples, but don't attack me.

     To finish this up, does anyone know of any cool jewelry websites for stuff like this? I'm into a ton of necklaces--that are actually one single necklace--with charms that are all different lengths, but pretty long.